Brialynn 2/1/08

Since 2008 began. I sensed God was calling me to something bigger than I could see. In the fall I felt like I was in slump spiritually. I reread This Present Darkness just before Christmas. The book recharged me to get out of slump. Little did I know what awaited me.
This past week a high school friend of mine had to bury her baby girl. She was 27 Days old. When I went on to her families website I just broke down in tears. The family shared pictures up until their baby took her final breath. The look in Kelly's eyes were so familiar. Unfortunatly, I had seen that look in another friends eyes just 10 months ago. I have never experienced the lost of a loved on that puts "that look" in your eyes. But I have seen it, once you have, you never forget it. It's like you are permantely imprinted with what you see in their eyes. Like a part of them is missing. Because apart of them is. God is a giver of life. I resent how Satan manages to take a life. I guess that is away he tries to steal our soul. But my God is bigger, stronger, and holier than any tactics the devil tries.
But still, I am griefing for my friends from High School who lost their baby girl. I want to do some much more for them. But one thing God has taught me this far into '08 is All I have to do is pray, and forget about my previous thinking...All I can do is pray.