Food for Thought

I haven't had a deep thought provoking post in a while. But I feel the need to do so. It is late. I tired, but not sleepy. I have just read my daily blogs for the second time, and checked my emails, myspace, and facebook. So, now I sit in my family room alone. The children and DH are sleeping and it's just me and my computer. I thought "Oh I am going to read my Bible, listen to my Worship Music, and pray like I haven't prayed in a while". But that isn't what I am doing. I am a bit weary and little down hearted. You see, I want something. Deep in my soul I want something so bad. So, bad that I go ask God for it then stop asking him so I don't get disappointed if he doesn't say "Here you go!". I also want something I know better than to even think of asking for. (This is one of those lust of the flesh things.) Then their is the one thing I have been praying about for years, that God has given to me in pieces. All of the wants are weighing on me. I want so much to just have all I want, because we all know I know exactly what I need and should have it!!! Right?? But no, I sit here, hoping, anticipating and waiting. I hate to wait. I don't like the unknown. I am scared sometimes what the future holds.
I sing...a lot. My children often ask me...okay beg me on occasion to stop singing. But singing for me is my last words when I am out of them. So, I sit here again on a lonely night thinking, hoping, anticipating my desires and ultimatly just wanting to live in the right now.

Here is my song for the evening. Enjoy! Sleep Tight! & Good Night!