just a girl-married to a funny guy-mama to two little dudes-writing about life...

One Week Down!

2009-08-30T21:00:00.003-05:00

It's been a week since both my Dudes started school. Littlest Dude joined Little Dude this year. So I official have no one at home with me anymore...It's a bittersweet feeling. I love having my babies with me, but the break is nice. On Wednesday, I woke up and almost told my husband I need to get up and take Lil Dude to school then me and Li'lest Dude will run errands today...my heart sunk...and after Big Dude left I cried for about 20 minutes. I can TOTALLY see why mom's get pregnant again when the kids go off to school. You really feel something missing. I have had someone attached me for 8.5 years. We had children so quick in our marriage, I have never know my marriage without me pregnant or without a little one following me.

I guess the verdict is still out about having both my kids in school. I have been making myself crazy busy so I don't have much time to think about it...*sigh*

A Stone of Rememberance...

2009-08-19T09:19:00.002-05:00

About 16 months ago I found out the school I was working for would not return after the 08-09 school year. My first thought was to look for another job. There was no way I was going to take on a task I was being asked to do. There are a few things I dislike...Sadness, Sorrow, and Grief...In my heart I knew I would experience all these emotions as the season of my school was coming to an end. I almost quit twice. I was offered a job last summer, but decided not to take it because it would take me away from my family too much. I turned that one down. Then again at Christmas I had another job opportunity and this one again was too time consuming and would rob me of my first calling...my family.

As the school was approaching the end I hadn't found a job. I believed God was calling me to be with my family for a season of rest. At first I wasn't happy with that scenario. I have always been a full time mom, but I have always done something on the side to keep me balanced. Sometimes we Mommies forget about the Me in Mommy. Once my attitude changed I was excited and happy about being home with no other responsibilities. But I still had that desire for something...

I am a teacher at heart...I LOVE children...and I LOVE TO TEACH!! Everything about education is my passion.

When it appeared I wouldn't be teaching in the fall, I decided to go back to school to master my second language...Spanish. My second passion is my heritage...I love being Puerto Rican. We Latinos are full of passion and that is absolutely me!! I had found a school to go to and was in the process of filling out the application to the college. Then one night I couldn't sleep....

I was surfing the web and came across a job posting for a Private School Part Time Kindergarten Teacher in the town where I live. I was little surprised. I was a director of a preschool and I couldn't think of which school this was. Was I in for a shock when I contacted the Director for information about the position.

Within one week I applied for the job, went for the interview and got the job. What makes this job such a God thing is...

1. I will teach English Kindergarten on Tuesdays and Thursdays...This has been the work schedule I have had for the last 4 years.

2. The hours are the same I have had the last 4 years.

3. I will teach at a Spanish Immersion Private School. I will be surrounded by Spanish Speaking Teachers who have committed to help me in my endeavors to master Spanish.

4. God told me to pray big in regards to my salary...He gave me more than I asked for.

5. God knew the desires of my heart...and gave me it all wrapped up in one beautiful bundle!!

When I finished this past school year I challenged my Staff with the scripture below...I will never forget where I came from...and am so excited to what lies ahead!!!

Joshua 4:4-7
4 So Joshua called together the twelve men he had appointed from the Israelites, one from each tribe, 5 and said to them, "Go over before the ark of the LORD your God into the middle of the Jordan. Each of you is to take up a stone on his shoulder, according to the number of the tribes of the Israelites, 6 to serve as a sign among you. In the future, when your children ask you, 'What do these stones mean?' 7 tell them that the flow of the Jordan was cut off before the ark of the covenant of the LORD. When it crossed the Jordan, the waters of the Jordan were cut off. These stones are to be a memorial to the people of Israel forever."

It's all in your mind....

2009-08-04T16:01:00.002-05:00

Often people say "It's All in Your Mind when one is paranoid or suspicious. One thing I have learned lately is my desire to get back in shape has been such a mind set.

For example...When I am on the Step Master and am doing Intervals, the last few seconds of the intervals is toughest part and always the most difficult. Yet, the other day when a friend and I were exercising we went a full 40 minutes and it was hard, but it was so much easier when you have someone who walks/sweats beside you.

I have added a few aerobic classes. 60 minutes of a cardio class... doing something you find fun will make the 60 minutes fly..It's still tough, but at least I am having fun while doing it.

What have I learned this week: I have noticed a decrease in my appetite.
Yeah for me!! I put on my bikini...verdict...not bad!!! I might actually wear it in public again...this summer!!!

Tonight...Hip Hop...better get my grove on for this class...

so I cheated...just a little...

2009-07-27T09:26:00.003-05:00

Yes, I cheated...I weighed myself before September. Yeah, that is some stupid to fret over. But after 3 weeks I haven't lost a pound not a single one...this is why I hate to weigh myself. At least in the early stages of my workout days. I just don't seem to lose weight in the the beginning. The last time I was training I didn't lose any weight but gained 10 pounds in muscle. So I transferred fat for muscle. Not my first choice in getting fit again, so I am hoping this doesn't happen this time.

I worked out 6 days in a row last week. I wanted to go in for day 7 but didn't want to jinks myself and re injure my knee. I did a dance class that I thought for sure would cause some knee pain, but it didn't. I have been surprised that I have been sore at all this last week.

I had a whole bunch of things I wanted to write about for this post but can't remember what I was going to say.

A big plus for me. On Saturday, I did 60 minutes of Cardio. Yeah for me!!! It's been probably 2 years since I did a 60 minute cardio class. I always looked for classes that were no longer than 40 minutes. I was such a dork for doing that...no wonder I gain 25 pounds and got out of shape!!

I do realize how do-able my goals are to attain. I look around at other people who have so much more to struggle with when it comes to their weight, I am thankful it didn't get there.

Confession- Ugh...I hate this part...but one of the changes my have noticed is...my tummy isn't noisy any more. I use to hear and feel all that rumbling going on...not so...

I am looking forward to going to the gym this afternoon. Another positive...my attitude is changing!!!

Random thoughts about Exercising

2009-07-22T11:19:00.003-05:00

For almost four weeks I have been an a journey to rediscover the athlete in me. Over the last two years I have acquired some extra baggage in the amount of 25lbs. Before that I was no size 4, but I was healthy, fit and worked out faithfully. My physical health was a top priority in my life. Life happens, I got busy and I forgot about me.I found myself with health problems I never experienced before. One was a sprained knee that took 3 months and 3 doctor's to determine what my problem was. Diagnose: Traumatized Sciatic Nerve causing Knee Pain...Physical Therapy 3x's a week for 4 weeks. After meeting my wonderful Physical Therapist and he explained what was going on I was in shock. First that my Sciatica could cause these problems and second...the exercise he had me doing were the stretching exercises I faithful would do all the years of my teaching aerobics and personal training...When I went home I was anger with myself for being so careless with my body and just that plain fact I was lazy...

The next visit to the Physical Therapist included 10 minutes on the bike to warm up...I broke out into a sweat with in 3 minutes...so again I was anger, frustrated and ashame...This lead me to committee to myself to be healthy and fit again. I faithfully followed my Physical Therapist instructions and within 4 visits I could tell a difference and within two weeks I felt like my knee was back to normal. Also the prayers of my family and friends contributed to the healing. Last week I discharged from the Physical Therapy and I go back to the Orthopedist for a follow up today.

The reason I am blogging about this experience is for me to 1. Be accountable 2. Be honest 3. Hopefully encourage someone out there to love themselves enough to be healthy...

I am not quite ready to post my weight yet...that is where my shame comes in...but I will...maybe... probably... when I start to see a difference in my body. I will be honest about the changes I have seen my body go through from the bad to the good.

After gaining the weight I struggled with IBS. It was so painful that couldn't go to the bathroom with out crying. With IBS(www.mayoclinic.com/.../irritable-bowel-syndrome/DS00106) comes a host of other problems.

First positive I have noticed is my bloated evening tummy pretty much gone. In the evening I would always make sure my stomach was covered so I would not have to look at it...I don't think I have lost any weight yet(I am not going to weigh myself at least till September.) but I just feel better.

I have a long journey ahead of me, but I am glad I am going in the right direction...Yeah Me!!

Date Tracker

2009-06-01T10:17:00.004-05:00

Dates are significant to me. I think that is part of the reason I am such a History buff. The reason I am a Date Tracker is because I see dates as a milestone. I look back at an "Anniversary" to see where I was, to where I am now. This week I will celebrate 9 years of marriage. I look back to where I was 9 years ago, and I couldn't be more different 9 years later, and I couldn't be more happy with who I am.

9 years ago...
I was 25 and really didn't know much about life...now NOTHING surprises me about life.

I lived and breathed church life...now I just live life.

I thought I knew all about serving God...now I have a relationship with Him with no strings attached.

I was in the best shape of my life and the perfect size 4...now I am no longer a size 4 but much more comfortable in my own skin.

I was afraid of what I didn't know or understand and it lead me to be very judgemental...now I could careless...most of the time!! I have enough to do taking care of me and my family!

I had a list of things I thought I needed to do before I got married and I did them all...now that "List" doesn't matter anymore.

"What is life but a vapor...here one moment then gone the next.."

Out of the Mouth of Babes

2009-05-29T10:39:00.003-05:00

My youngest son is a constant source of humor in our family. He his ability to think, reason, and understand is beyond his physical age. The following is an example of a typical conversation with this little guy. Who to the cyperworld is know as "Littlest Dude".

The Dinner Table Tuesday Evening

Mommy: "You are not going outside to swim until you eat your dinner."

Littlest Dude: "But I don't like Chicken Stir Fry."

Mommy: "Chicken is your favorite thing to eat."

Littlest Dude: "Not any more!"

Mommy: "Why??!!!"

Littlest Dude: "Because I am a vegetarian!"

Did I mention he is 5...

The Fear Fighter

2009-05-28T08:30:00.005-05:00

When I was a girl, I was terrified of the dark. So scared, that I often would have panic attacks during the night and struggled with horrible nightmares. This happened till I was 12 years old. I would lay in bed and pray the rosey until I fell asleep. In the 7th grade I was introduced to the Fear Fighter. When I met Him, I was immediately changed. I remember waking one night to go the bathroom and returning to bed. After I laid my head on the pillow, I sat up and was in shock that I had really gotten out of bed. Then I realized...it was gone...Fear no longer had a hold on me. Do I still struggle with fear...occassionally...but now I know the Fear Fighter.

Perfect Love Casts Out Fear...

Here I go again!!!

2009-05-27T09:56:00.002-05:00

So, here I am again...It's been a long time since my last post. I have always enjoyed blogging, yet I often get side tracked once I start doing it. But hopefully I will have more time on my hands this summer to be a more active blogger. I am not sure what direction I will go with my blog, but I know it will have something to do with Parenting, My Faith, Family Life, and Life Lessons. Stay tuned...hopefully you will see a facelift or something that will bless you...Until then next post...blessings...

I...

2008-09-09T16:07:00.003-05:00

I saw this on Kendra's blog...so I thought...ehh...why not...
I am: Mom and Wife...enough said
I think: I think to much
I know: I tend to put up with more than I need to
I want: to lose 20 pounds
I have: two amazing children
I wish: my children would stop growing up
I hate: when people lie
I miss: having a baby around
I fear: my children dying before me
I feel: achy, long day in heals and fibro doesn't do well in this weather
I hear: My oldest creating something
I smell: My boys left over snack
I crave: Snickers Cheesecake
I search: for good deals
I wonder: what this year holds
I regret: the time I lost "parenting" instead of loving
I love: family and my God
I ache: the uncertianly my dearly beloveds will face this near future
I care about: other people's feelings
I always: get in a really bad mood before my period
I am not: who I thought I would be at 33
I believe: that God isn't not finished with me yet
I dance: and love it!!!
I sing: alot and my children tell me I sing to loud
I don't always: show as much compassions as I should
I fight: not physically, but I will someone lights my fire
I write: in my journal religouly
I win: often...guess I am lucky or I say blessed
I lose: clothe all the time. I swear there is a laundry monster in my laundry room
I never: want to live with regrets
I confuse: people because I talk so much
I listen: with great difficulty...my mind races a hundred miles per hour
I can usually be found: at church or walmart
I am scared: spidars and losing my childre
I need: hugs and lots of them...but only from people who I trust
I am happy about: how well MDO is going

A lesson in submission

2008-09-03T19:28:00.002-05:00

I admit it...submission is not an easy thing for me to do. In fact when I believe I am right I am very passionate about what I feel/am right I don't budge...not easily anyway. Three years ago when I (notice the word I) was deciding what school my Little Dude would go to Kindergarten. It was no question we would send him to private school. I had been a private school teacher for years. Attended private school and college. It was never a thought that my children will go to public school. When we moved into our house, my husband thought it was so cool we lived to close to the public school. My thought was "That's nice for everyone who attends PUBLIC school." In my arrogance, a good christian doesn't put their child in public school. In the weeks to come, I began to realize my husband and I didn't see eye to eye on Christan and private education. Yes, that was one of those discussions we didn't have before marriage. I just assumed he was okay with it. I was a private school teacher when we were dating. So, I ASSUMED he was on board with it. Then it came for us to decided where Little Dude would go to school. And WOW!! We sure got into it. I went as far as to tell him I would ask my parents for the money if he wouldn't pay for it. OUCH!!What didn't occur to me at the time was God has a plan. And He always has a plan. What was his plan...I couldn't see it, but my husband did. After many disfigurements I woke up one morning and I knew that I knew I knew my son was to go to public school. Oh yeah I was mad! That meant God was siding with my husband. I didn't like that. That meant I was wrong...Remember I was right about this particular decision. So, after much heartache about giving up that dream about my children going to private school, I prepared him and myself for Little Dude attending public school. Oh did that hurt. Still does occasional. My prayers changed, my ideas changed, and most of all God changed my heart. He gave me the ability to see that Public School was in my son's best interest. You see...God answered my first request. Please let his teacher be a Christ Follower. She was and God has been faithful to allow each teacher since then be a Christ Follower. But his K-5 teacher will always be a special lady. I knew Little Dude struggled with speech and a few other things. I could never put my finger on it or what it was. Mrs. Brown recognized what Little Dude had. She very lovingly told my husband and I what she suspected. Our suspicions were confirmed that he had Dyslexia. Mrs. Brown told us about Scottish Rites Hospital and the importance of getting Little Dude diagnosed from Medical professionals and how that would open all the doors he would need to have a successful academic career. In the school system you don't go through Dyslexia testing till the end of 1st grade. But because we got Little Dude diagnosed so young he entered 1st grade with High Priority for Tutoring and getting 504. Most families struggle with their Dyslexic Child till 3rd grade before the child gets proper diagnosed. We were blessed to not endure that. Now that Little Dude in in 2nd grade he has been in classrooms with teachers who are Reading Specialist. He began his MTA classes early and has had all the nescarry accommodations a child with Dyslexia need to have a successful academic career. All this to say...I submitted to my husband and followed his leading to put our oldest son in public school. I can't imagine the struggles our son would have had it I would have not "let" go and pressure my husband to do what I WANTED. Instead of doing what God was leading him to do. Do I still wish my children are in private school? DEFIANTLY!!! But I know my son is exactly where he needs to be to receive the best education he can get. We have been at our public school for three years and I thank God we are here and that He has blessed my son..

Let me introduce you to Cynthia

2008-07-29T21:01:00.001-05:00

See you soon ladies!!

2008-07-29T18:18:00.001-05:00

Home is where the heart is.

2008-07-14T21:26:00.002-05:00

I have just returned from a trip to Florida. I was in need of some much time away. I went to visit my parents for several weeks. We enjoyed the sun, beach, Disney World, Animal Kingdom and the Hot Springs. We did make to trips to the emergancy room and one visit to the doctor. So all and all it was a typical family trip. I truly enjoyed my parents. I am the baby of the family. So, when the baby comes for a visit and she brings her babies...Needless to say I took naps mom cooked my favorite meals and my children were spoiled rotten.
When the trip came to an end. I didn't want to come back home. The last night of the trip I was sitting on my bed having the PLM's. (Poor Little Me Syndrome) I knew God had great things waiting for me at home. God gave to two promises this past year. Slowly, he is revealing them to me. So, Here is to the Journey.

Can you guess

2008-06-21T06:43:00.005-05:00

where I am going on vacation??? I will be thinking of you all when I am on the beach...Well...maybe or maybe not...ahhhh

Again...Waiting and Wanting and Wishing...

2008-06-16T13:48:00.003-05:00

for something that is sooooo in God's hands. But I do know this, as my dear friend told me just the other day. His plan is no surprise to Him, but he wants it to be to me. Oh one thing...I have never been good with surprises. Hum...So I guess I need to keep waiting on this one.

Food for Thought

2008-06-08T23:24:00.002-05:00

I haven't had a deep thought provoking post in a while. But I feel the need to do so. It is late. I tired, but not sleepy. I have just read my daily blogs for the second time, and checked my emails, myspace, and facebook. So, now I sit in my family room alone. The children and DH are sleeping and it's just me and my computer. I thought "Oh I am going to read my Bible, listen to my Worship Music, and pray like I haven't prayed in a while". But that isn't what I am doing. I am a bit weary and little down hearted. You see, I want something. Deep in my soul I want something so bad. So, bad that I go ask God for it then stop asking him so I don't get disappointed if he doesn't say "Here you go!". I also want something I know better than to even think of asking for. (This is one of those lust of the flesh things.) Then their is the one thing I have been praying about for years, that God has given to me in pieces. All of the wants are weighing on me. I want so much to just have all I want, because we all know I know exactly what I need and should have it!!! Right?? But no, I sit here, hoping, anticipating and waiting. I hate to wait. I don't like the unknown. I am scared sometimes what the future holds.
I sing...a lot. My children often ask me...okay beg me on occasion to stop singing. But singing for me is my last words when I am out of them. So, I sit here again on a lonely night thinking, hoping, anticipating my desires and ultimatly just wanting to live in the right now.

Here is my song for the evening. Enjoy! Sleep Tight! & Good Night!

My Calling

2008-05-30T15:33:00.002-05:00

When I first surrendered to the God's call on my life to go into the ministry, Ray Boltz was huge. Thank you was always a dear song to me. I knew as a teacher I would touch many lives. My first class I taught back in 1998 was a first grade class. One of my students, Allison prayed to receive Jesus as her savior after Bible class one day. I didn't know she had done that until she wrote it in her creative writing journal. I have a copy of that journal entry. When I think about the things that I have been apart of in ministry Thank you has encouraged to me to keep pressing on.

Brenda and Debbie, Thank you for taking time out to be a blessing to the ladies and me. Your crowns are gladly laid at Jesus feet.

With Every Season & Remember I Will See You...

2008-05-28T13:39:00.003-05:00

This post is dedicated to my lovely co-workers at MDO.

Yesterday I said Good-Bye to a season. Preschool has ended for the school year and the teachers won't return till September. So, I thought of this song and thought how appropiate it is to listen to the song. What I cherish about these ladies and the kids is just the love the children so freely give and the fact that 36 ladies come to work for not much pay yet give over and beyond of themselves.

Ladies- It was my pleasure! God bless and I will see you (Play the next video!!)

NKOTB

2008-05-25T15:11:00.003-05:00

My best friend from Jr. High told me just to tell me New Kids and on the Block would be reunited for a summer tour. We both being the grown ups we are just screamed and reflected on the days of Jordan, Donny, Cover Girl, Block Heads, and Genie Pants. I was in love with Joey. He was the youngest and cutest one. So here is a video. Enjoy!

Facebook

2008-05-21T14:40:00.002-05:00

Since my brother turned me onto facebook back in the fall. I have found MANY of my long lost friends. I have a myspace account, but I think facebook is way better. I just much more user friendly.

What I have loved about catching up with long lost friends, how we just picked up were we left off. Several of us talk one or more times aday. And the blessing there people have been in my life just takes my breathe away.

So, if you have not experienced facebook. Stop by. You never know who you may find. Look me up when you are there!!

-A friend loves at all times
-BP

Just for you!

2008-05-20T18:32:00.001-05:00

Who's Child is This?

"Who's child is this?" I asked one day
seeing a little one out at play.
"Mine", said the parent with a tender smile
"Mine to keep a little while
to bathe his hands, to comb his hair
to tell him what he is to wear.
To prepare him that he may always be good
and each day do the things he should."

"Who's child is this?" I asked again
as th door opened and someone came in.
"Mine" said the teacher with the same tender smile.
"Mine to keep just for a little while,
to teach him how to be gentle and kind
to train and direct his dear little mind
to help him live by every rule
and get the best he can from school.

"Who's child is this?" I asked once more
just as the little one entered the door.
"Ours" said the parent and teacher as they smiled
and each took the hand of the little child
"Ours to love and train together,
ours this blessed task forever."
Author Unknown

2008-05-20T14:49:00.000-05:00

A Season has come to an end...Almost

2008-05-20T07:53:00.002-05:00

This is the last week of school at MDO. I just seems like a blurr almost. It went so fast. What was my impression of the year? One big wild ride!!! I didn't know what to expect leaving the classrooma and taking an adminstrative position, but it was worth it. Just the experience I am forever grateful for. I have been blessed to work with truly amazing women. Women who sacrifice so much to minister to these sweet little ones left in our care. Ladies have left, my heart still aches because I miss them so. Yet, I sit in front of my computer unable to go to work today. (My Little Dude is running a fever with no explanation. Glad I spent the money on the co-pay to be told that. That's another entry!!)
It saddens me a bit to think about missing just one more day at the preschool. So, if I could sum up this school year in just one phase or word, it would be...Continue.

Continue in what you have learned.
Continue to be a student of life.
Continue to press on.

Dear God,
I have mixed emotions. I look forward to spending the summer with my children. I love being with my children. But a part of me will miss the adventures of school. So as this season ends, thank you for the treasure you have given me this year. I gladly receive whatever this next season brings.

Your Beloved Princess

God is good all the time and all the time God is good.

My Visual Personality

2008-03-25T19:05:00.006-05:00

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7 a Number for Perfection! Happy 7th Birthday Little Dude!

2008-03-21T16:43:00.003-05:00

Happy Birthday Little Dude!

7 years have gone by so fast. When you turned 4 you promised me you wouldn't get bigger!!! Guess what you have.

I had been awake for over 48 hours when you were born. I was so tired. And wanted to give up. I had no clue how to give birth to a baby. My doctor reassured me and was able to get me to do it. You heartrate was slowing down. Dr. Gipson told me "You have one more chance to push him out than I will have to do a C-Section." It had been over 3 hours of pushing I was exhausted and was falling asleep between contractions. I prayed and ask God to help me do this. I took one last breathe and with all that was within me pushed you out. I remember grunting and screaming and the rest of the nurses cheering me on. Then I saw you and I couldn't stop crying. The nurses tried talking to me and I told them to leave me alone. When I was holding you you were coved in gook and I wasn't sure if I could kiss you. So I kissed your hand. Did you change me life. I never knew I could ever love so deep and hard. You were and always will be my Little Prince Charming. Happy Birthday my sweet Prince. God bless your life richly and thank you being the amazing child you are! All my love, Princess Mommy xoxoxox

What do you get...

2008-03-17T16:49:00.005-05:00

when you put a Worship Pastor, SAHM'S, Communication Director, Retiree, Facitiltes Director, Teacher, Engineer, Doctor, HR Director, Retail Guy, A Church Greeter, A Couple of Artists and Some other folks I don't know what they do, and of course all our children???

An eight foot cake that will float on our church's pond for 5 weeks as we begin a new series entitled Love Beyond the Wedding.

Dear God,

Anyone who see this cake, may it remind them of a happiness they once felt. May they be reminded that at on time they were in deep love with their spouse and by Your grace and mercy it can be restored again. Touch the marriages in my church. Restore those who keep the secret of their unhappienss, and build up something new in those whose marriage is on the right path.

"If they were to write about the story of my life. They would have to mention you , with every page they write, There another side to every story told. If love were mathematical we would understand the sum. That to the heart equation, where one and one makes one, And lonely equals me minus you. Always love me, never leave me know, Now you are the othe side of me."

-Michael W. Smith The Other Side of me

Your Beloved,

His Princess

Are We the Body??

2008-03-15T09:30:00.002-05:00

Am I an effective part of the Body of Christ? What? Do I have to be there more than I am already? Being on staff at a church can be draining. I can see why people don't last in the ministry more than 2 to 3 years. The average Pastor doesn't stay at a church more than 2 years. Why??? What is the church doing wrong? What up with the Pastor and or Staff that doesn't stick it out? I am the problem. It's really simple. ME! The trouble maker who complains about the next project.(Silently of course, because I would never want anyone to really know what I think!!) ME! The one who thinks poorly of the Pastor when I don't agree with something he says in him message(But nope my head as if I am agreeing with him and say AMEN with the masses). ME! The one services in the ministry full time yet *sighs* when I have to volunteer for a church event. (When I secretly think I should be getting paid to be here. Because this is my job isn't it?) So why does it seem like The Body doesn't function? Because of ME!!! Now how do I fix ME!

God,
Humble me to know that what I do is bigger than what I see. Remind me that you are watching every step I take. Give me a heart like Jesus! Who still went to the cross even when the ones He was dying for shout "CRUCIFY HIM!". Crucify my selfish heart, my disobediant ways, and please put in me a desire to want to sacrifice for you. Especially, when I don't want to.

"Take my life and let it be, Consecrated Lord to Thee, Take my moments and my days, Let them flow with in ceaseless praise,Let them flow in ceasless praise."

Your Beloved,
His Princess

What do you expect?

2008-03-14T13:43:00.003-05:00

GREAT EXPECTIONS

We all have them. What we expect from ourselves, others, and I guess life.

I know I set high expectations for myself. I tend to be very hard on myself at that. So much so I can beat myself up when I don't get it just right. I guess I am a perfectionist of sorts.

My children...poor kids. When you are a mom of boys you have to lay the law down and stick by your guns. My boys...well, they must endure my expectations of them. They are to do what I ask in the time frame and according to our families schedule. Not because I am being controlling, *maybe a little* but really because they are other people in the family and we need to function as a unit. When one person falls behind well, you or I make everyone else pay. Don't get me wrong they are amazing. Just like any other kid they have their ups and downs. But I am very blessed to have such well behaved, well mannered and generous, kind hearted and thoughtful children. Gosh! They are amazing!!!

Others unfortuantely don't let them know my expectations of them. I can't really go up to someone and say,"These are my expectations and if you fail to meet them you will fail me and I will be disappointed and let down by YOUR failures." We get mad at our bosses for managing as humans. Sinner like me trying to do their job(we hope). Our neighbors who just can't keep up with Jones or me trying to be like my neighbor the Jones. And our pastor...poor man(or women depending on your faith) he isn't allowed to ever fail. Because if he does...Watch Out! he will pay for it. What about spouses? I know DH pays for the expections I set on him he hasn't met, even when I have never verbalized them to him. Even then if I have told him...well, how realistic am I being in what I expect from him.

So, I guess ultimately, I need to look at myself in the mirror and say "Why are you being such a brat?" "Grow up and don't set such unrealistic expectations on others. Especially if you don't expect that from yourself!" Right!!!?? Hum...sometimes it is easier said then done.

Dear God, Help to never expect anything from others that I should be going to you to fulfill. Forgive me for I do this so often. Create in me a clean heart and renew a right spirit within me.

Your Beloved,
His Princess

My job, My self, My family, My all...

2008-03-13T15:38:00.003-05:00

I am tired today. My feet heart. I swear I even smell a bit strange. The time change has been every difficult on our entire family. I usually am time challenged. Okay I a either late or early. There is NO in between with me. So, I strive to be early, but end up being late.

So, here are my thoughts.

My job...
I feel like I am caught in the middle sometimes. I was a teach for several years before going into administration. So, I look at the ladies I work with and I miss being in the classroom and am thankful to have the opportunity to have moved on. Two ladies are standing out in my mind today. I guess they have always been special to me. They were my baby's first teachers. Mrs. Jen and Mrs. Holly are amazing ladies. They have away of managing their class with such awe and wonder. I even thought about teaching their age group because they make it look so easy. But then I look at the group(teachers) as a whole and see what they all have to offer. I see what Pastor Kevin was talking about when me mentioned how the body of Christ must work together to function as one. I live by the statement when working in the ministry "United we stand, Divided we fall." True.. don't you think?

My life...
I LOVE fashion, being with my family, reading my Bible, listening to worship music, singing to my Jesus and talking about God. I know I am a Jesus Freak. But that is who I am. Before I became a Jesus Freak, I would look at other Jesus Freaks and think they were just crazy Christians. Well, over the last oh...3 years I am proud to say I am just that a Crazy Christian Jesus Freak!!

My family....
I love being with them. I would choose my family over a girls night out any day. I love to stay up till 1 in the morning talking to my husband. I cherish the time I spend with my family. When I get an afternoon to myself, I don't know what to do with myself. I miss my children and husband. I even miss my DH when he is at work. I remember think how could I ever love this man more than I do right now. And I do. Those crazy little dudes I am raising...well, if you see them...how can I resist!!

My All...
Dear God, I want so desperately for others to know they can give you their all. That they don't have to live a life filled with fear and regret. That they would know the power you have placed in each of us. I know how it feel to feel as if you walk alone. Even when I have been the closest to you I have felt that way. You have placed me around such AMAZING people. I hope my life has blessed them. That when they walk away, they would seek to know you deep, desire to love you harder, want to chase after your awing presence. I am a mess and apologize more than I say thank you. Grief more than rejoice. Get angry then experience joy. But You, You still love me. And hold me in the palm of your hand.

"Here's my life Lord...be glorified...be glorified...here my life Lord...be glorified today..."

Your Beloved,
His Princess

A Women's Soul...

2008-03-12T13:28:00.003-05:00

Do you see yourself as the beauty God created you to be? What lies have you believed? By what name does He call you? The book Captivating John and Stasi Eldredge answer all these questions and more about the beauty of the womens soul.

So, MDO ladies will you join me on the journey as we discover or rediscover the beauty that lies within each of us.

I will start the comments...Do you see yourself as the beauty God created you to be??

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

2008-02-17T21:23:00.003-06:00

Take ever thought captive...ever thought! and then breathe...

Love Song

2008-02-14T16:07:00.003-06:00

Jesus, Today lovers celebrate the gift you so freely gave and offer to me each day. I know what you did for me and how you love my soul. You love me so deeply I cannot even understand it. I am yours and you are mine. Yesterday, Today and Forever.

Here my song I sing to You today!

Brialynn 2/1/08

2008-02-12T21:26:00.002-06:00

Since 2008 began. I sensed God was calling me to something bigger than I could see. In the fall I felt like I was in slump spiritually. I reread This Present Darkness just before Christmas. The book recharged me to get out of slump. Little did I know what awaited me.
This past week a high school friend of mine had to bury her baby girl. She was 27 Days old. When I went on to her families website I just broke down in tears. The family shared pictures up until their baby took her final breath. The look in Kelly's eyes were so familiar. Unfortunatly, I had seen that look in another friends eyes just 10 months ago. I have never experienced the lost of a loved on that puts "that look" in your eyes. But I have seen it, once you have, you never forget it. It's like you are permantely imprinted with what you see in their eyes. Like a part of them is missing. Because apart of them is. God is a giver of life. I resent how Satan manages to take a life. I guess that is away he tries to steal our soul. But my God is bigger, stronger, and holier than any tactics the devil tries.
But still, I am griefing for my friends from High School who lost their baby girl. I want to do some much more for them. But one thing God has taught me this far into '08 is All I have to do is pray, and forget about my previous thinking...All I can do is pray.

Fibromyalgia...My Blessing and My Curse...

2008-02-03T20:07:00.001-06:00

Today has been a tough day. My Fibro has flared up so bad this month. I am not sure what has caused this flare up, but it's been rough in princessville. I HATE complaining or talking about the Fibro. But hopefully, I can do it now and just move on. I don't want to burden my family with my woos and pains. So I don't talk about it much. But I gave in today. They have been helpful and the boys have been very well behaved. It rough when my little Doe Doe Bird has to help me stand up because I can't get up by myself. I went to the doctor and he is running some test to rule out a virus or infection. But I know what he will say. They found nothing, take your pain med, rest and this to will pass. So, here it sit in pain...unmedicated. I hate taking those meds. They make me sleepy. When you have to little dudes. VERY ACTIVE little dudes, it just isn't possible. I am going to put the little guys to bed then crash for the night. Hopefully, this to shall.

Just another day...

2008-02-03T09:15:00.000-06:00

Not much in Princessville this week. Just the typical adventures of a mama of 2 and wife of a travelin man. I got to visit with a new friend I have made at the preschool were I work. What I love about this lady is her courage. I know that even though she is enduring something any mom would dread, she still smiles and takes each event that comes her way one day at a time. I believe whatever comes her way, she can endure it. She has something in her that makes her a warrior. Kind of the silent type. You don't have to say much around her, and it's okay.

During my quiet time I have been moved to seek out women who would walk beside me. This is a challange for me. I have always struggled with close friendships with women. But what God showed me is that I need that companionship a female friendship offers. A couple of ladies came to mind who I admire and have recently come to know. Each one of them this week spoke words of wisdom to me, and blessed me.

Is this another part of my journey this year God? To face the things I fear, and be strong and couragous? You are the molder and I am the clay. Make me beautiful in your eyes. Create a clean heart in me. Help to be still and know are God. Today, I choose to wait and listen for your voice.

Today...

2008-01-29T20:42:00.000-06:00

I am wondering why He loves me so unconditionally...how deep, how long, how wide, is his love for me. I just hope that today I made him proud of me. That when he looked down from heaven and saw me he said "That's my princess, she has done good." That really is all I want...to know God is pleased with me and that my life has had purpose in his kingdom.

Sweet Jesus, may my life be pleasing to you today. May I live a life that doesn't distract others from you. Guide my children to see I am human. And my husband to be patience with the lady I am he call his girl. May my loved know how deep is my love for them.

Your Princess

Why I Teach

2008-01-26T20:33:00.001-06:00

Today I spoke at an Educator's Conference. While I was speaking at one of my sessions one person caught my eye. I have seen that look she had in her eyes. Usually, it was in one of my students. But this was a grown women I saw it in.

I use my experience with my son's learning disability to explain a lot of my teaching style. When I mentioned what my son struggles with this lady perked up. That confirmed to me why I saw that look in her eyes. I knew what she struggled with. After the session I was signing forms for the attendees and this lady whisper to me she had a question.

I usually stay in my room to answer questions other feel to intimidated to ask in front of a group during q & a. This lady handed me a note and walked out of the room. After everyone left I read it. It was on a crumpled piece of paper. The writing was beautiful. Because it showed me again, why I teach. The words were spelled in a unique fashion. It just made me smile. Her letter was simple:
My name is _______. I have ________. No one helped me in school. I was medicated and stuck in the back of a room and never really learned anything. I still can hardly write, or spell, and I hate to read. I am a teacher's aid so I can help other kids not feel like I did.

Then she thanked me for what I do help other teachers to help students with learning challenges.

My heart just ached after I read her letter. What I saw in her eyes was what I have seen in so many children's eyes when they "don't get it". The reason I am the teacher I am is because of my brother, a former student, and son. His teachers were to stupid (sorry but it's true) to see what was right in front of their face. A boy who was bright, but just needed alittle extra help and patience. Instead he was labeled dumb and would never amount to anything. Then, there was Marcie. She wanted to learn, but she had a "fog" she couldn't see through. I loved this little girl!! I learned patience with her and understanding. Finally My son...he is amazing. And so smart!!! I push him! I make him work and never let him settle for less than his best. He he has made strides this year that have surprised everyone. Not me though...that probably sounds arrogant. But it's true. If you have every worked with someone who is challenged you know they can do it. You just have to stand beside them and hold their hand instead of dragging them along. So, I have stood by these individuals and now we all four walk together to pass on alittle wisdom to others who choose to listen to my mindless babel about making a difference.

So, my precious note I received today reminded me Why I teach...

Tuesday's Treasure

2008-01-22T20:40:00.001-06:00

Happy Birthday Little Boy! Four years old! Where did the time go? It seem just like yesterday I took the test to see if you were on your way. I remember that day. I was a beautiful day. Warm, sunny, I forgot to check the test until your brother grabbed it and said what's this? I remember thinking WOW! This is sure strange timing. But it was perfect timing. You were a part of a transforming time of my life. Your time to come into this world gave me the strenght to face many days ahead.
You were a big baby! So big that the doctor said you would have to come early so there would be no complications. When you were born everyone gasped. I didn't realize how big you really were. I just wanted to hold you. A part of my heart, a part of me. You are my funny little man. You and I have this bond. Not sure how to explain it, but it's there. Your melt my heart, and that smile...it just takes my breathe away. I never get tired of holding you or smelling your hair. There is nothing more precious than watching you sleep. You still pouch your lip like you did when you were a newborn. I know you love being the baby of the family. Who wouldn't? I know I sure did. Maybe that is our bond? I doesn't matter. Just sweet little boy Mommy loves you and Jesus adores you!! Happy Birthday my sweet little prince charming. Besos y cheso!!!
-Ti Mami

Am I cut out for this??

2008-01-20T17:35:00.001-06:00

Lately I have been a bit overwhelmed. Nothing out of the norm just the craziness of life has caught up with me once again. I look at my children and I am again reminded as to how selfish I am. I adore my children and am forever thankful for them. Yet, I have days when I think I just can't be a mom any more and why did I get married. Usually that will happen after a day of sibling rivalry, scream as I drag my youngest out of Peter Piper Pizza, and when I am just plan tired. I struggle with a chronic illness that causes chronic fatigue. If you have never experienced CFS be thankful. I can be just my normal self them BOOM! Out of no where I will become so exhausted I can't even lift a glass with out wanted to fall asleep. That is how I have felt the last few days. I often wondered why I was allowed to struggle with Fibromyliga. It disrupts most parts of my life. But I was allowed to have this illness. When you are a SAHM/WM, have a husband who travels weekly, and is in grad school, a son who struggles with a learning disability, another child who walks to the beat of his own drum. Makes me feel like I just can't do this. So, I guess as I evaluate my life these last few days I am reminded of why one of my favorite hymns is "Singing I go along life's road, praising the Lord, Praising the Lord. Sing I go along life's road, for Jesus has lifted my load." Oh Jesus help me to remember there isn't anything we can't handle together and nothing happens that is a surprise to you!!

Tuesday Treasure

2008-01-15T19:58:00.000-06:00

My Tuesday Treasure is a place. I graduated from Pensacola Christian College. It is an ultra Conservative college. Most people would call it a legalistic college. I call it one of my many places I have had the privilege to call home. PCC took a stand for what they believed in and stood for. Though I may not agree with their standing on issues, I will always be proud of the fact that they stood firm and stood up for what they believed to be true. I learned to take a stand for something I truly believe in. To never grow weary in well doing. I also learned to discern between what is important and what is really worth fighting for. PCC was another time of my life. I am very different today. But will forever be grateful for the time I spent at PCC. They played a major role in who I am today. I defiantly would not be the poster child for PCC, but I will always be proud to say I am a PCC Eagle.

Monday Moment

2008-01-14T09:36:00.001-06:00

This past weekend I was unable to log on to my job's network. If you really know me then you know i hate not being able to answer my email. I guess that is one of my quirks. Okay I may be a bit OCD. So, this morning I was able to log on and low and behold I got to check my mail. No fires to put out. Just your typical work emails One email from a person I have recently gotten to know emailed me. She mentioned that though just a few weeks ago we hardly new each other because of present circumstances we have developed this friendship. She said she couldn't explain our connection, but we have one. Sometimes life circumstance put people in our paths to to help us on our journey.
What has drawn me to this person is the challenge she is presently facing with her child. This child has been hospitalized and will be till we really don't know when. Her journey brought me back to one I experienced with my youngest son. When my youngest son was three weeks old he was hospitalized with a life threatening illness. Those days were perhaps the most difficult days I have ever endured as a parent. The heartache you feel can't be described. But now as I write this post I can still feel that lump in my throat and recall the loneliness felt. One day when my son was at his worst. He was being closely monitored during the night because he was showing of respiratory failure. I remember crying out to God to spare his life and that he would have an abundant life. I told God if he ever put someone in my path that would endure something similar, I would do what ever he lead me to do to encourage/bless them. Well, four years later it has happened and here I am. We don't know the journey God will take us on or the people he will bring into our life to help lead us on the way. I don't call events in our life trials, because I believe all things are part of our journey in this thing called life. What do we do with our journeys? Will we simply put them on shelf and hope we never endure heartache again or will we pay it forward and walk beside someone and shed the wisdom God gave us so they can walk a step forward?

Who am I?

2008-01-12T10:04:00.000-06:00

I went for my Saturday morning run. Okay it was a walk, but run sound better. I was listening to my ipod and Who am I came on my Ipod. I began to think who am I? I have many roles in life: wife, mommy, daughter, sister, and teacher. But who have I thought I was as a person: lazy, dumb, fat, jealous, two-faced, manipulative. This list can go on. But I try to believe those traits are defects and turn from them to become Who I am. Who I am in God's eyes is:His beauty, His bride, His beloved, His child, His princess, His choosen. When someone whisphers those words to you how can you not at some point believe them. So, when I believe I am who I think I am I whispher to myself "My name is His Beloved. I have black hair and brown eyes, I weigh ??? pounds, I am 5'6, and God made me special and loves me very much." Then I sing Jesus love me this I know, for the Bible tells me so, His beloved to him I belong, I am weak, but he is strong...
So, who do you think you are and what does God whispher to you in your ear???

?????

2008-01-10T22:04:00.000-06:00

I don't know what to entitle this post. I have so many different emotions running through me right now. One of the students in my preschool, is recovering from a life threatening illness. From the minute he became ill he has touched my heart. I don't know if it is because I can somewhat relate to how his mother feels. My youngest son was hospitalized 4 times before his 2nd birthday. Unless you have gone through an experienced like that you can never explain to anyone how you survive it. Because that is what you do. Your child needs you. And you are the last person you are thinking about. You have to meet your child's needs. It's a strange feeling and place to be. I think that is what makes us mothers. Our ability cope and manage difficult issues.
This family has made such an impression on me. Through this tragic illness, they have never ceased to recognize the need to call upon God. Today was a difficult day for this child. He had an urgent need for prayer. 20 plus of us meet together and called out to God to have mercy on this child. God heard our cries and He was merciful to this child. I don't know what part I play in this family's life. But I do know they played a huge one in my life. Because of this tragic event, I been calling out in prayer like I haven't in many months. I knew 2008 was be a season of something for me. I can't put it into words yet, but compassion and pray have been such a part of my season.

Thursday 13

2008-01-09T17:10:00.000-06:00

13 Reasons I love being a mommy of boys!

1. Just look at them!!

2. I know how much my parents loved/love me.

3. I would give my life for them.

4. My prayer life increased...If you are a mama of boys you know why!

5. I get to be their first love!

6. I am the only girl in the house so I am spoiled.

7. I see how much they love me in their eyes.

8. You learn that a clean house isn't as important as watching Fetch.

9. Nothing surprises you.

10. When you see them eat a bug, play with dirt, shooting toy guns and making things that explode are really not big deal as long as not one gets hurt.

11. You know the quickest route to the hospital, urgent care, and doctor's office

12. I get to watch them become something I can never be.

13. Knowing one day my heart will break when they give their heart over to another girl who will/should replace me.

Works for me Wednesday

2008-01-09T14:21:00.000-06:00

One thing that my family and I do to keep the family organized is keep a family monthly calendar. Everyone writes down their monthly activity. Each Sunday we sit down and look over the week to come. That way we all stay on top what is going on over the week and everyone can plan their week accordingly. In the past I had a calendar, my DH had outlook and I kept a separate one for the kids. To many!!! So, we have narrowed it down to one. It sit next to the phone. I still have my personal and DH has his outlook we just transferr our information to the family calendar. That we know whatever one is doing and whether it effects the family or not.

Tuesdays Treasure

2008-01-07T16:06:00.000-06:00

Since I work on Tuesdays I decided to post my Tuesdays Treasure today. So just bear with me. This is a picture of me and my hubby. I look at our picture and think about what God's grace means to me. DH and I shouldn't be together in the worlds point of view. We have endured things that would make anyone want to run from there spouse. But for some reason, God shed His grace on our marriage and redeemed it. We still have so much to learn. And are working each day to make our marriage a picture of what Christ did for the church So, my Tuesday Treasure is my marriage. Though many time I want to run from it, wonder what I am doing in it and honestly, at time have regretted marrying at all. How can I not treasure something God has put so much time and energy in to save.

I must be crazy!

2008-01-07T15:46:00.001-06:00

Recently I have bumped into people who I know in the blogosphere. Usually I don't care that I blog stalk, but when you knows the people you are reading there blog and don't say anything, well, that's abit creepy. So, I have been trying to decide if I want to start blogging again or not. It has been months!!! Just after reading some of the most loviest post lately. I just can't help myself. I already have a myspace, facebook, and professional blog. So,why not complicate my life more and add more to my already crazy life. Blogging was always a thing I loved. Maybe it's calling me again... we will see...

I'm back or at least going to try to be...

2007-06-22T20:15:00.000-05:00

So, we are into the summer. I thought I should start up my blog again. Or at least try to start writing again. So, we will see what happens.

2007

2007-01-02T16:36:00.000-06:00

Since Little Dude started school this past fall. Blogging has been on the back burner. Why, well I had so much going on, I really had to prioritizes my schedule. Blogging was at the bottom of my list. I have kept up with a few I faithfully read.

So, what are my resolutions this year. NONE! I think they are a waste of time. I believe if you want to make a change you need to do it now. If you aren't making changes in your life at this moment, why would a new year be a motivation.

The other night Doe Doe got out of bed and said he had to give us all another kiss good night. I just can't resist him when he is so cute! He kissed Dadee and then Momee, then he leaned over and kissed my Bible. That just blow my mind away when he did that. I am reminded of the verse Train up a child in the way he should go...

50th Post

2006-10-21T16:15:00.000-05:00

Today is my 50th post. Here are fifty facts about me
1. I am a grateful believer in Jesus Christ
2. I am a wife
3. I am a mommy
4. I am a teacher
5. I am an aerobics instructor
6. I sing
7. I play the flute
8. I gave my life to Jesus Christ when I was 12
9. I was baptized when I was 16
10. Surrended to full time Christian service when I was 17
11. Could never imagine not serving God in Full Time Christian Ministry
12. I love Chocolate
13. I stopped eating burgers when I was 16.
14. When I was pregnate with my second son all I wanted to eat were burgers and fries.
15. I still crave burgers and fries
16. I craved pork fried rice and steamed dumplings when I was pg with my oldest
17. He LOVES pork fried rice and dumplings
18. My husband gain weight with me when I was pg
19. I am at my pre pg size.
20. I had horrible heart burn when I was pg with both my children
21. Both my boys were very hairy babies
22. I knew I was pg with boys
23. I wanted my first son to be just like my husband.
24. He looks like him, but acts just like me.
25. My first son and I argue like you can't believe, but love each other even more
26. My youngest son looks like me but acts like my husband
27. My oldest son's nick name was my husbands nickname for me until I said that sound like a boys name. So, I started calling him Booh. It has stuck ever since.
28. I have an older brother who was and still is my best friend.
29. His wife Christi was my matron of honor when I got married
30. Every wedding I have been I caught the bouquet.
31. Even after I got married and it was accidently thrown to me
32. I have learned if you have five close friends in life you are blessed beyond measure
33. Everything you need to know in life you learned in Kindergarten
34. I was no were near an A student, but I turned out to be a sucessful teacher
35. One of the reason I can became a teacher was because of my brother
36. I have 15 nieces and nephews
37. Two of my grandparents are still living
38. My family is from Puerto Rico
39. I didn't embrace my Puerto Rican heritage till I was in College
40. My spanish is self taught
41. My spanish isn't that great
42. I took 25 people on a missions trip to Mexico. I was the only person who could speak spanish. See #41.
43. God did a mircle in me on that trip. My spanish isn't that great, but managed to get everyone their and back with no problem
44. I have been on three missions trips.
45. I thought about being a missionary for a long time
46. I always dated guys older that me
47. I had long hair down to my bottom until 2 years ago when I cut. PG hormones made me lose my hair. Cutting it stopped my hair from falling out.
48. I have a JLo butt
49. I love being hispanic
50. I love my family, even though we are an old group. I couldn't imagine life without any of them.

His love song/story to me...

2006-10-15T16:11:00.000-05:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XGUvHjby-u4&eurl=

2006-10-11T12:59:00.000-05:00

I am joining on the Five for Five Band Wagon.

What I would do if I had 5 minutes to myself
1. Go to the bathroom without an audience
2. Take a shower without anyone pulling the curtain saying "Mommy, I just have to tell you something."
3.Sit and not think about everything I should be doing
4. Eat a meal without being interupted
5. Miss numbers 1-4

If I had $5 dollars to spend
1. Buy a decaf, nonfat, splenda sweetened Caramel Frappacino( I have only found 1 person at a Starbuck in the next town who attemped this drink for me)
2. Give it to my kids to buy something at the Dollar Tree
3. Get a Starbucks gift card and lay it in the driver side of my husband's car to surprise him on his way to work in the morning
4.Buy a Starbucks gift card for my parents who think its silly to spend that much on a coffee no matter how good it is :)
5. Buy the nail polish I love but think it costs to much

5 Thing I would love to get rid of
1. The wall paper in the entire house.(We are in the process of remodeling our house and I am counting down the days till the wallpaper comes down.)
2. The "stuff" in all the drawers and closets of my house
3. The last 5 pounds of my the weight I am losing to spend a week in a bikini in Mexico in early spring.
4. Though it is considered a gift to have a JLo butt I wouldn't mind shrinking mine a bit
5. My kids breathing problems

5 Phrases I love to hear
1. Mommy I just love you so much/I love you with all my heart
2. Mommy you are so beautiful
3. When my husband says "You will never know how much I love you"
4. When you ask Joey for some of his snack and he say "Jus u wittle bi"
5. When all my boys(including my hubby) say I love mommy more than you

5 things I could never part with
1. My Bible
2. My boys first pictures
3. Our wedding picture and emails we wrote to each other as we dated long distance
4. A letter my dad wrote me when I was about to graduate from college and he thanked me for being a great child to raise and was so proud to have me as his daughter
5. A birthday card my mom sent me for my 30 birthday that should have been sent to a 3 year old.

Five for Five

2006-10-11T12:36:00.000-05:00

I am joining on the Five for Five Band Wagon.

What I would do if I had 5 minutes to myself
1. Go to the bathroom without an audience
2. Take a shower without anyone pulling the curtian say "Mommy, I just have to tell you something."
3. Just and not think about everything I should be doing
4. Eat a meal without being interupted
5. Miss numbers 1-4

If I had $5 dollars to spend
1. Buy a decaf, nonfat, splenda sweetened Caramel Frappacino( I have only found 1 person at a Starbuck in the next town who attemped this drink for me)
2. Give it to my kids to buy something at the Dollar Tree
3. Get a Starbucks gift card and lay it in the driver side of my husband's car to surprise him on his way to work in the morning
4.Buy a gift card for my parents who think its silly to spend that much on a coffee no matter how good it is :)
5. buy the nail polish I love but think it costs too much

5 Thing I would love to get rid of
1. The wall paper in the entire house.(We are in the process of remodeling our house and I am counting down the days till the wallpaper comes down.)
2. The "stuff" in all the drawers and closets of my house
3. The last 5 pounds of my the weight I am losing to spend a week in a bikini in Mexico in early spring.
4. Though it is considered a gift to have a JLo butt I wouldn't mind shrinking mine a bit
5. My kids breathing problems

5 Phrases I love to hear
1. Mommy I just love you so much/I love you with all my heart
2. Mommy you are so beautiful
3. When my husband says "You will never know how much I love you"
4. When you ask Joey for some of his snack and he say "Jus u wittle bi"
5. When all my boys(including my hubby) say I love mommy more than you

5 things I could never part with
1. My Bible
2. My boys first pictures
3. Our wedding picture and emails we wrote to each other as we dated long distance
4. A letter my dad wrote me when I was about to graduate from college and he thanked me for being a great child to raise and was so proud to have me as his daughter
5. A birthday card my mom sent me for my 30 birthday that should have been sent to a 3 year old.

Tuesday's Treasure

2006-10-10T15:23:00.000-05:00

Patrick and I are an interesting couple. We are about as opposite as they come. Today, I wanted to to share someone I treasure. Without him, I wouldn't be the person I am today.

Where in the World Has Texas Gal of 2 Been??

2006-10-05T16:04:00.000-05:00

Thirteen Reasons I haven't Blogged!

1. My First Born Started Kindergarten, I love his teacher and school, just struggling with the philosophy and methods they choose to teach.
2. I have to drive/walk him to school each day.
3. The Carpool line is a nightmare from Hades. If I don't get here 30 minutes before school starts or ends I will have to wait out in the street to pick him up or drop him off.
4. I have started attending a new small group on Monday nights
5. I teach on Tuesdays
6. I sing in my church choir, my son sings in the kids choir, and he is also in AWANAS, this is my wednesdas.
7. I teach on Thursdays
8. Fridays I have a ladies Bible Study
9. Saturdays is family day
10. Sundays is church and family day
12. I am wiped out from the entire week
13. When I get on the computer I am catching up on all the blogs I haven't read all week. I also was so smart I decided to start a myspace account. (Had LOTS of friends on myspace, so I being a great leader, decided I needed to and something else my crazy life.

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Video Killed the Radio Star

2006-08-21T13:14:00.000-05:00

Listen to the song, then read the post below. Enjoy!

A Child of the 80's

2006-08-21T13:09:00.000-05:00

My Brother sent me this email. I just had to share it.
This brought many good memories from my childhood. The 80's was a great decade

Children of the Eighties

We are the children of the Eighties. We are not the first "lost generation" nor today's lost generation; in fact, we think we know just where we stand - or are discovering it as we speak.

We are the ones who played with Lego Building Blocks when they were just building blocks and gave Malibu Barbie crewcuts with safety scissors that never really cut.We collected Garbage Pail Kids and Cabbage Patch Kids and My LittlePonies and Hot Wheels and He-Man action figures and thought She-Ra looked just a little bit like I would when I was a woman.

Big Wheels and bicycles with streamers were the way to go, and sidewalk chalk was all you needed to build a city. Imagination was the key. It made the Ewok Treehouse big enough for you to be Luke and the kitchen table and an old sheet dark enough to be a tent in the forest. Your world was the backyard and it was all you needed. With your pink portable tape player, Debbie Gibson sang back up to you and everyone wanted a skirt like the Material Girl and a glove like Michael Jackson's.

Today, we are the ones who sing along with Bruce Stringsteen and The Bangles perfectly and have no idea why. We recite lines with the Ghostbusters and still look to The Goonies for a great adventure. We flip through T.V. stations and stop at The A Team and Knight Rider and Fame and laugh with The Cosby Show and Family Ties and Punky Brewster and what you talkin' 'bout Willis? We hold strong affections for The Muppets and The Gummy Bears and why did they take the Snorks off the air? After school specials were only about cigarettes and step-families, the Polka Dot Door was nothing like Barney, and aren't the Power Rangers just Voltron reincarnated?

We are the ones who still read Nancy Drew and the Hardy Boys, the Bobsey Twins, Beverly Clearly and Judy Blume, Richard Scary and the Electric Company. Friendship bracelets were ties you couldn't break and friendship pins went on shoes - preferably hightop Velcro Reeboks - and pegged jeans were in, as were Units belts and layered socks and jean jackets and jams and charm necklaces and side pony tails and just tails. Rave was a girl's best friend; braces with colored rubberbands made you cool.

The backdoor was always open and Mom served only red Kool-Aid to the neighborhood kids- never drank New Coke. Entertainment was cheap and lasted for hours. All you needed to be a princess was high heels and an apron; the Sit'n'Spin always made you dizzy but never made you stop; Pogoballs were dangerous weapons and Chinese Jump Ropes never failed to trip someone. In your Underoos you were Wonder Woman or Spider Man or R2D2 and in your treehouse you were king. In the Eighties, nothing was wrong. Did you know the president was shot?

Star Wars was not only a movie. Did you ever play in a bomb shelter? Did you see the Challenger explode or feed the homeless man? We forgot Vietnam and watched Tiananman's Square on CNN and bought pieces of the Berlin Wall at the store. AIDS was not the number one killer in the United States. We didn't start the fire, Billy Joel. In the Eighties, we redefined the American Dream, and those years defined us.

We are the generation in between strife and facing strife and not turning our backs. The Eighties may have made us idealistic, but it's that idealism that will push us and be passed on to our children - the first children of the twenty-first century. Never forget: We are the children of the Eighties.

Rev. Ed Rodriguez, Pastor
Ragland Memorial Baptist Church

Love this song!

2006-08-14T22:18:00.000-05:00

Thirteen Reasons I am all Girl!

2006-08-10T12:21:00.000-05:00

Thirteen Reasons I am All Girl

1. I was born a girl! ;0)

2. I have given birth to two handsome little boys!

3. I come from a line of girly girl.
-Grandmother still rolls her hair every night to look beautiful the next day.
-My mom loves to shop(this was passed on to me sorry Daddy and Honey!)
-I was and am still all foofoo. I can still run with the boys though. I had to learn both worlds having a brother who is 6'2 and over 250lbs. As well as being in a house full of boys. Hubby still lets me do my girly things.

4. I never leave the house without doing my hair and makeup. Expect when my kids are sick. Then they are my priority and I don't care what I look like.

5. I match everything I wear, from earrings to my shoes.(Even my underclothe will match what I have on! Uug!)

6. I love Sam Moon. Enough said! For more info to sammoon.com and enjoy!

7. I can talk on the phone for hours about absolutely nothing.

8. If all I ever did in my life was be a wife and mom I would/am satisfied.

9. I have been hooked on soap opera in the past! I am recovering from this addiction. But occasionally when I am bord you may find me surfing on the remote and stop at Days of Our Lives when it is on. Ooops! Oh did I mention I love chick flicks!

10. I teach my boys to honor and respect women. And at their young age to open a door for a lady.

11. I couldn't ever imagine not being a girly girl.

12. I have cute aerobic clothe. And I cordinate those outfits too. (I do teach aerobics so I need to look like an instructor.)

13. I saved the best for last!

I do my hair and makeup when I get ready to workout.

It doesn't matter if I am teaching an aerobic class or not. I still do my hair and makeup. Now understand, I look a wreck when I am done. But I started off looking okay!

It does pay off...

2006-08-02T14:22:00.000-05:00

Well, I will be the first to admit. My children are no angels. They look like angels, but don't let that fool you. They are good boys. They are sweet and loving and they adore there mommy. But WOW can they be boys!
Today was one of those "Why did I ever become a mother?" days.
This afternoon the christian radio station was broadcasting from Blue Bell Creamier. I decided to take the kids to the Creamier. It is 100 + degrees over here and Blue Bell was giving tours of the freezer that is -20 degrees below 0. So, I thought why not? We met the radio personality and she just adored the boys especially Patrick. She let him talk on the radio. He was adorable. After we all got free ice cream and Blue Bell hats. Bonnie told me that I had done a great job raising my kids and she loved having them and told me I could take any CD off the table for free. Low and behold what CD was on the table,
Mark Schultzs Live...A Night of Stories & Songs. And it had ALL of Mark Schultzs biggest hits. Who is my favorite male christian artist?? Mark Schultzs!
This was one of those days and God just reminded me "Yes, the road is hard but I am good."

Tour of Homes Finally!!

2006-07-31T17:42:00.000-05:00

After Dozens of attemps, after screaming at the computer, after 4 days of trying. I finally got my pictures posted. So, as you enter my home please enjoy!! So better late than never, I am offically ready to be a part of the Tour of Homes! Oh and yes, my house is always this clean!! Whatever!!

2006-07-31T17:29:00.000-05:00

2006-07-31T13:18:00.000-05:00

May All Who Enter Here Be Blessed

2006-07-29T18:53:00.000-05:00

Well, I see you have stopped by. It is my pleasure to welcome you in to our home. Please look around. As you enter may this Irish Blessing follow you.

May this home and all therein be blessed with God's love.

Please step into the foyler. In the distance you can see the family room.

This is were I become a mouse potatoe. I blog, do research and somedays just waste the day away.

And here is my beloved family room. I have had so many dreams about how to decorate it, but alas, I gave up that dream. For a few years anyway. Till the boys are older and I won't be nagging them to take their feet off the funiture.

Here is where I try to bless my family. The kitchen, my haven, my room. I love to cook this room and my bedroom are off limits to toys, and horse play.

This is our famlies oaisis. This is what makes living in Texas bearable. Don't worry there is a child proof gate, double lock, double door and 5'4 childproof lock on the gate to prevent the children from breaking in.

So, I hope you enjoyed your stay. It was my pleasure for you to stop by. I leave you with this last blessing.

May your home be filled with laughter

May your pockets be filled with gold

And may you have all the happiness

Your (Irish) heart hold.

Money well spent

2006-07-25T13:17:00.000-05:00

The Price of Children

This is just too good not to pass on to all. Something absolutely positive for a change. I have repeatedly seen the breakdown of the cost of raising a child, but this is the first time I have seen the rewards listed this way. It's nice.

The government recently calculated the cost of raising a child from birth to 18 and came up with $160,140.00 for a middle income family. Talk about price shock! That doesn't even touch college tuition.

But $160,140.00 isn't so bad if you break it down. It translates into: * $8,896.66 a year, * $741.38 a month, or * $171.08 a week. * That's a mere $24.24 a day! * Just over a dollar an hour.
Still, you might think the best financial advice is don't have children if you want to be "rich." Actually, it is just the opposite.
What do you get for your $160,140.00? * Naming rights. First, middle, and last! * Glimpses of God every day. * Giggles under the covers every night. * More love than your heart can hold. * Butterfly kisses and Velcro hugs. * Endless wonder over rocks, ants, clouds, and warm cookies. * A hand to hold, usually covered with jelly or chocolate. * A partner for blowing bubbles and flying kites. * Someone to laugh yourself silly with, no matter what the boss said or how your stocks performed that day

For $160,140.00, you never have to grow up. You get to: * finger-paint, * carve pumpkins, * play hide-and-seek, * catch lightning bugs, and * never stop believing in Santa Claus. You have an excuse to: * keep reading the Adventures of Piglet and Pooh, * watch Saturday morning cartoons, * go to Disney movies, and * wish on stars. * You get to frame rainbows, hearts, and flowers under refrigerator magnets and collect! spray painted noodle wreaths for Christmas, hand prints set in clay for Mother's Day, and cards with backward letters for Father's Day.
For a mere $24.24 a day, there is no greater bang for your buck. You get to be a hero just for: * retrieving a Frisbee off the garage roof, * taking the training wheels off a bike, * removing a splinter, * filling a wading pool, * coaxing a wad of gum out of bangs, and coaching a baseball team that never wins but always gets treated to ice cream regardless.

You get a front row seat in history to witness the:
* first step, * first word, * first bra, * first date, and * first time behind the wheel.
You get to be immortal. You get another branch added to your family tree, and if you're lucky, a long list of limbs in your obituary called grandchildren and great grandchildren. You get an education in psychology, nursing, criminal justice, communications, and human sexuality that no college can match
In the eyes of a child, you rank right up there under God. You have all the power to heal a boo-boo, scare away the monsters under the bed, patch a broken heart, police a slumber party, ground them forever, and love them without limits, so one day they will, like you, love without counting the cost. That is quite a deal for the price!!!!!!!

Love & enjoy your children & grandchildren & great-grandchildren !!!!!!!
It's the best investment you'll make!

OCD, Maybe

2006-07-24T17:13:00.000-05:00

I tend to let things get to me. It is usually something someone has said more than what they have done the eats at me.
When I see someone do something I think is stupid, well I look at it and think whatever. But when I hear someone say something I think is ridiculas, that is when I get OCD. In my mind I play the conversation over and over again. Then I over anaylize what was said, break it down, and and try to figure out they said what they said. Why do I do this. I haven't a clue. I know I have said my share of stupid and idiotic things. Why is it if someone else say it, it can just eat me away. Oh, and if I know what they said is wrong and just plain ignorance. That is the worst. If I am close to the person who said it , I generally will say something to them. But when I am not , I don't and that is when it eats at me the most. And again I ask myself Why do I care. Beats me. Today was one of those days. And here I am blogging about it. I guess my words of wisdom to myself would be get over it. I know that is what I would say to one of my friends. But easier said then done, Wouldn't you agree??!! So what I plan to do the rest of the afternoon is find my happy spot and go there when I become OCD. I think the above picture might be a nice place.

2006-07-20T15:36:00.000-05:00

Thirteen Things about My Name

1. My Name is Bernadette
2. I have been called B, Bernie, Bern
3. Sorry mom, But I have never cared for my name
4. I get compliments on my name all the time
5. Before my parents were even married, they decided if they ever had a girl her name would be Bernadette
6.My name was my mom confirmation name
7. I have only met one other Bernadette in my life I only know of 2 more
8. I have song named after me
9. Both my children can say my name clearly
10. When my husband first heard me say my name, he thought it was a beautiful name. That is why he say he remembered be after not seeing me for seven months.
11. By the name be call me, that will tell you how they know me
Bernie:childhood name
Bern : High School and College
B: My brother's nickname for me
Bernadette: My adult name. Boy was I glad to get rid of those other names.
My brother and husband call me Bern, and my parents best friends call me Bernie, but fortunatly everyone else calls me Bernadette
12. My students call me everything from Miss Bernadette to Miss Dernabette to Miss Bernquest to anything else you can imagine
13. When ever I am in a crowd and I hear the name Bernadette called I know who ever is calling out Bernadette it is me they are calling. Unlike many of the traditional names.

Tuesday Treasure

2006-07-18T17:40:00.000-05:00

For my Tuesday Treasure I had two things I wanted to share. The first is of my Bible. My brother bought this Bible for me for my High School graduation. This book is covered with highlights, notes, underlines and stained pages from tears. When ever I have felt defeated in my walk with Christ or felt unrest I would sleep with my Bible. When I am worshipful I will walk around with my hands lifted high to sky with this Beloved Book in my hand.

This is a picture I will always treasure. It was taken last summer. I was folding clothes and I noticed it was way to quiet in my house. I found Patrick(seated) and Joey(standing) dressed like this. In fact Joey had a shovel in his hand. He was "cleaning up after doggie". This picture truly shows my sons personalities.

I am sure like everyone, we each have dozens of things we treasure. My Bible and this picture were the two things that popped into my head.

To My Son Patrick, with Love...

2006-07-13T23:54:00.000-05:00

It almost doesn't seem fair. Five and a half years ago we met. It was a long night. I was tired, anxious and utter exhausted. When I thought I couldn't go on. God gave me the strength to do just a bit more. Then you were here. I knew I loved you, but when I saw you. That love blew me away. You know that love. The one that didn't allow me to sleep through the night for three and half years. I never wanted anyone to know so I lied and said "Oh he's been sleeping through the night since he was 2 months". Mommy was pretty convicing. It was that love that helped whine you at 15 months. Even though you reached your arms out to me and cried Mama, Mama. That same love is what brought tears to my eyes the first time in play group I saw a child being unkind to you. And all you did was turn the other cheak. How frustrating potty training was. But I had learned quickly, you do things when you are ready and not a moment sooner. What a sweet brother you are. That love is what gave me the patience to wait to hear you talk when again you were ready.
But still is just doesn't seem fair. In four weeks I will have to let go. I guess not really let go but move on. This time into a direction I have lived. One I remember so clearly. It's a fun, trying, and tempting time. Gosh, are you ready? Or maybe am I ready? It guess it doesn't matter. It is going to happen whether I would like it to or not. So, why does it seem so unfair. I knew it would be hard to let go. But I didn't realize I would feel so many different emotions.
So now as I still feel a litte bit cheated, I will hold you up again and raise you up to God. I know He has been holding you all along. But for me I need to lift you one of many more times. Just so I can remind myself that God is truly in control.
So, why do I feel things are a bit unfair and a tad cheated. Well, because I am a selfish mommmy. How I wish I could be there to see every step you will take in this new journey in your life. But mine now is a sideline watch. Other will have to step in to do their part. But know I will run out to the field whenever you need me and whenever you think you don't. I will be the cheerleader who cheers you to your victories and the one who opens her arms when you feel defeated and face defeat.
So when you see my tears of they will be a mixture: one part sadness, one part joy, and a lot of parts of love.

I love you my Handsome Prince!
Love Princess Mommy xoxoxoxo

The Path Unknown

2006-07-12T10:26:00.000-05:00

I have always been the kind of person who hates to wait for things. I would seach all around the house looking for the Christmas gifts. I can read the end of a novel and want to read it. Someone can tell me what happens in a movie and I will still go see it. I hate when someone one tells me I have something to tell you and then makes me wait. Is this a lack of patience? Maybe, but often I wonder why I just can't wait for something. Is it that I am selfish? Another good thought. I wondered if it is my live in the now mentality I have had for many years. I am a spoiler to myself being this way. I think I am this way because I don't impress easily. It takes a lot to WOW me. I am impressed by the simple things in life. A walk in the Colorado mountains.Listening to my children breathe while they are asleep. Watching my sons play with there father. Seeing how my family has grown in the Lord. Listening to a testimony of someone who has turned there life around for Christ.
So what does today bring me? I don't know, maybe that is better, because often the unknown is better than making up a realitiy.

Unpluged

2006-07-10T15:20:00.000-05:00

We just got back from Colorado. The weather was cool. Nice rain in the afternoons. My husband and I unpluged. We decided no computers, blackberrys, cellphones, and no blogging or reading blogs. Can I tell you we had the most wonderful time. I can honestly say, I don't remember the last time we had such a great family vacation. I never really mind Patrick checking in at work. At his position you can't really get away completely. But I have to admit. My husband was amazing. We spent 10 days together and I can honestly say I didn't feel like pulling my hair. Even when Patrick decided he wanted to cut through Okalhoma.(This added 2 hrs to our trip.)Oh this was a road trip.
One of the highlights was on our return trip home we stop in Capulin, New Mexico. We hiked a Volcano. We walked in, around and every which way. My boys were the ones encoraging us to see everything. They are only 5 and 2.5 . When we got to the top we were over 8,000 ft. WOW! Talk about BEAUTIFUl!
So to my hubby, thank you for a wonderful trip. We loved the time together, and we love you!

I love you, Patrick!

2006-07-08T10:05:00.000-05:00

I have been out of town for awhile in Colorado. I will post some pictures from our trip in a day of so. Until then...

7 Random Facts about Me
1. I grew up in church. This was good and some bad. Good was I was spared from LOTS of heartache and trouble in life. Bad was I a bit ignorant about life. I guess that is a good thing too. My husband was a plus to bring me up to speed about life. Now I feel my life is pretty balanced.

2.I sing. My Mom said I was born singing. The only music my voice can sing well is gospel. I have tried singing pop,rock, and country. But my voice only thrive when singing gospel music.

3. I have a knack for teaching children to read. I love teaching all subjects, but there is something about my ability to teach reading. I was VERY far from being a honor student. I think that is why I can teach a child to read. I remember struggling and I take my experiences and use them when I teach.

4. I met my husband 7 months before we started dating. The night of our first meeting I wrote in my prayer journal Mrs. Patrick (Last Name).

5. I hate milk. I think it smells as bad as it tastes.

6. I am an exercise freak. I love sweating, panting, and getting my heart rate up and feeling utterly exhausted at the end of a workout. I love lifting weights as much as a cardio workout.

7. I am begining to have a desire to teach in the public schools. I have been a private/christian school teacher my entire career. If God works it all out. I would love the opportunity to teach in the public school system one day. I have always had a desire for mission. Maybe this would be my mission field?

7 Random Music
1. Natalie Grant
2. Selah
3. Casting Crown
4. News Boys
5. Kelly Clarkson
6. Raschel Flats
7. Anything Latin

7 Things/People I like Most
1. Chocolate Enough Said!

2. My next door neighbors. My parents retired to Florida about two years ago. A couple alittle bit older than my parents moved in and have been a heaven sent blessing to us since my parents moved.

3. Seeing a first time mom holding her baby. That look and smile are priceless.

4. My son, Patrick's art projects. He is so%

Fabulous 7

2006-07-08T09:16:00.000-05:00

I have been out of town for awhile in Colorado. I will post some pictures from our trip in a day of so. Until then...

7 Random Facts about Me
1. I grew up in church. This was good and some bad. Good was I was spared from LOTS of heartache and trouble in life. Bad was I a bit ignorant about life. I guess that is a good thing too. My husband was a plus to bring me up to speed about life. Now I feel my life is pretty balanced.

2.I sing. My Mom said I was born singing. The only music my voice can sing well is gospel. I have tried singing pop,rock, and country. But my voice only thrive when singing gospel music.

3. I have a knack for teaching children to read. I love teaching all subjects, but there is something about my ability to teach reading. I was VERY far from being a honor student. I think that is why I can teach a child to read. I remember struggling and I take my experiences and use them when I teach.

4. I met my husband 7 months before we started dating. The night of our first meeting I wrote in my prayer journal Mrs. Patrick (Last Name).

5. I hate milk. I think it smells as bad as it tastes.

6. I am an exercise freak. I love sweating, panting, and getting my heart rate up and feeling utterly exhausted at the end of a workout. I love lifting weights as much as a cardio workout.

7. I am begining to have a desire to teach in the public schools. I have been a private/christian school teacher my entire career. If God works it all out. I would love the opportunity to teach in the public school system one day. I have always had a desire for mission. Maybe this would be my mission field?

7 Random Music
1. Natalie Grant
2. Selah
3. Casting Crown
4. News Boys
5. Kelly Clarkson
6. Raschel Flats
7. Anything Latin

7 Things/People I like Most
1. Chocolate Enough Said!

2. My next door neighbors. My parents retired to Florida about two years ago. A couple alittle bit older than my parents moved in and have been a heaven sent blessing to us since my parents moved.

3. Seeing a first time mom holding her baby. That look and smile are priceless.

4. My son, Patrick's art projects. He is so creative and his imagination is captivating.

5. My youngest son, Daniel's(Joey) attitude. Though this gets him in trouble, I admire his whatever and carefree attitude about life.

6. Movie night with my husband. Because babysitting can be very expensive we have become creative with our date nights. We put the kids to bed early and I get dress up like we are going out and order take out and rent a movie. Though this isn't a traditional date this works for us. Because isn't it really about spending quality time together? I know it is important to get away with your husband, but I really believe quality time at home is just if not more important than out of the house date night.

7. My family is my life, joy, desire and all.

7 People I tag
1. My Brother
2. Amy
3. Stepanie
4. Meredith
5. Mandy
6. KellyGirl
7. Anyone who reads my blog...

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13 Things I am Thankful for
1. God Saved me November 8, 1987
2. He called me to full time Christian Service October 1992
3. My father got saved August 1992 after my mom prayed for over 15 years for him
4. My oldest son's birth March 2001
5. My youngest son's birth January 2004
6. I have a Christian Hertiage to leave my children
7. God gave me a voice to sing his praises, This is how I pray to him many days
8. I had the courage to not only blog, but to comment on other blogs
9. I started teaching again after taking a 3 year hiatus to be a SAHM
10.God sees fit to meet my needs, even though I am so unworthly of them
11.That I can ask anything of God, He gave me his son, what more could I possible ask of him
12.My brother found his ministry after many years of facing defeat
13.God keeps me in the palm of his hands day in and day out

Rockie Mountian High

2006-06-29T14:56:00.000-05:00
Mi Familia and I are heading out to the Rocky Mountain State. We are going to visit the in laws. I will be out of comission for a few day. My in laws don't have a computer yet. We haven't been able to convince them of the joy of having a PC. Maybe they are the ones who are right!!!???

Singing I go along lifes road...

2006-06-27T14:05:00.000-05:00
Today I was sweeping the kitchen floor. Which I do several times a day. But today was different. My son found an OLD children's worship CD, Michael Card. We listened to it and the mood in my house was so uplifting. My children who had never heard the songs sang along as if they knew every word. My oldest son is showing a real interest in music/singing. I think he will be the one to follow in my footsteps as a singer. I have always dreamed of singing with my children someday. Hopefully that someday will be sooner than I think.

When a word cannot be uttered...

2006-06-26T09:27:00.000-05:00
I am not sure what to say today. I haven't posted in several day. I have wanted to say something, but couldn't put it into words. This reminded me of a passage in the Bible where it talks about the Holy Spirit speaking for us when we can't utter a single word to God. I can think of countless times when my heart was so heavy I couldn't even utter but a tear to God. What does the Holy Spirit's prayers sound like? How does God react differently to a Holy Spirit's prayer for me then another one. I imagine that God's urgency is quick to meet our needs. But when the Holy Spirit speaks a prayer for me I believe God's reaction is more urgent, if that is possible. I believe this is so because I can think countless times when I was so desperate I couldn't move, speak, no scripture helped and the kind word of another did nothing. But when I found my quiet place and the Holy Spirit spoke, all desperation was gone. And I uttered not a single word. Be still and know I am God.

Mi Papi

2006-06-18T20:49:00.000-05:00
My Daddy, Mi Papi, y Mi Viejo!

All the names I loving call my Dad. What do I say about him. My dad is an amazing person. I so many ways. He came to the NYC from Puerto Rico when he was just shy of 14. He couldn't speak english and all he had were the clothe on his back. It is hard for me to imagine that. Because he gave me so much and more in life.
I don't think I truly appreciated my father till I became a parent. I always was thankful for the things he did for me. But as my father it was just different. We are very much alike. We are both driven. Will try about anything that appeals to us. We understand things and see things the same way. I think I am a bit more flexible than he, but that might be because I am a girl.
He is a wonderful dad and an amazing grandfather. My dad didn't get saved till I was 17. Because of his conversion, I believe anyone can change. I think that is why I am very accepting of people. You never can know what God will do with someone. After my father got saved. I saw a transformtion in him. I can't put it into words. But all the things I admire about him, he used it to have a passion for other to know Christ.
He has lead MANY people to the Lord, and doesn't have a fear of sharing the gospel. My father works in the computer industry, yet still finds time to serve God in church. (Spanish Pastor, Sunday School Teacher, Discipler, Church Clerk, Mission Board, and the list goes on.)
The one memory that stands out in my head about my father is this:
I was a sophomore in college. I was struggling with my major in Education. I didn't think I would get accepted into the teaching program. I had decided I was going to change my major the following semester. I calle on that evening to tell my parents. My dad answered the phone. My dad NEVER answers the phone. I explained to him my delema. He told me. "Well, Bernadette if that is what you want to do that is fine. But I didn't realize I didn't raise you to be a quiter." Ouch! A year and a half later I graduated from college with a degree in teaching and am still teaching to this day. That statement my father told when I was 20 still motivates me to never quit and to press on.

I love you Daddy! Thank you for helping me to reach my dreams Happy Father's Day!
-Baby G

Myheritage.com

2006-06-17T10:09:00.000-05:00
So I have been reading about myheritage.com. It is a site where you upload a picture and they tell you who your celebrity look alike is. I just had to do it! Maybe I need a little bit of my self esteem boosted. So, here are their findings.
1. Victoria Principal
2. Martina McBride
3. Kelley Clarkson
4. Kim Catrell

I had to laugh a bit at # 4 and the fact no one was hispanic. I have been told often I resemble Selena the Tejano singer killed in the late 90's. The website didn't seem to think so. Oh well it was fun trying!! I used the picture of my I posted on my blog.

My boys and the gator.

2006-06-09T15:06:00.000-05:00

Here is a picture of my boys at Lake Monroe Florida. In the back ground is the Gator I mentioned in a previous post. I think Joey is looking at it. Patrick was looking at a family of ducklings.

Spiritual Meme

2006-06-09T07:53:00.000-05:00
Finally I am able to post this. Sorry it took so long!

Give a bit of your testimony

I was saved when I was 12 years old. November 8, 1988. I know this sounds strange. But at a young age I new there was more to going to heaven then just being a good and kind person. I was purposed to find Christ.I would lie in bed at night terrified that if I died I knew I would not go to heaven. Don't know where those thoughts came from. I just struggled with those thoughts for about 2 years before I got saved. We were Catholic. I don't mean to offend anyone, but I was so empty after attending church there. I know many believers who attend Catholic Church, but I didn't find what I needed. My parents put my brother and I in a private christian school. Immediatly, I saw a difference in the people. It was alittle difficult for me at first. My view of church was priest, nun, and saints. In the new church and school I was attending, I heard about having a personal relationship with Christ. In Chapel, I heard people say you can know for sure you are going to heaven. My ears and heart soaked in everything I was told. Two months after school started a College in the area Word of Life came to the town I lived in to put on a production called Revelation. The play was based on the book of Revelation. I was so convicted of my sin and I realized I was a sinner who needed Christ. I understood Christ was the way to eternal life. After the production was over. A older man came forward. Pray and asked was there anyone who wanted to receive Christ as their personal savior. I raised my hand. He lead many of us in the sinners prayer. He asked us to come forward if we prayed that prayer. I didn't go forward. I was scared too. I didn't know what my family and friends would think. For years Satan would use that incident to attack me in doubting my salvation. After a few years, I got the victory over those thoughts. Walking an aisle doesn't save me. Baptism doesn't save me. Being a good person doesn't save me. Receive Christ as my personal savior, is what saved me. That is what I have believed and believe to this day.

What is your life verse?

This is a diffcult one. I have several. I love the King James Bible. I think that is because Igrew up on it. I attend a Bible Believeing church that uses the NIV. But my heart still yearns for the beauty to the King James. My first verse is Psalm( Can't rememer the chapter right now) :23-24 The step of a good man are ordered by the Lord and he delighth in his way, Though he falls he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Lords upholdeth him with his hand. Next is in Phillipians (Can't remember the chapter and verse again.) I press towards the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus, Forgetting those things which are behind and reach forth to those things which are ahead. I would have to say the book of Phillipians is filled with tons of verses I just love.

Do you have a favorite preacher?
Johnny Pope , he is preacher in Texas. He is funny and meets you right where you are. My favorite radio/TV preacher would have to be Tony Evan.

Best Bible Study ever done?
Another hard one. I have done many of them. I would have to say my best Bible study would be the ones I did for myself. Nothing formal. Just got interested in a topic and researched it myself. Right know I am studing prayers of women of the Bible.

What is God's calling on your life?
When I was 17 God called me to full time Christian service. I knew my calling was/is to be a teacher. Now I am a mommy, wife and teacher. I have said this before, but how could my life be any better. I know I am in the Will of God. My greatest loves of my life are God, Family and Ministry. I am priviledge to to being able to serve and live my greatest desires.

So, this is alittle about me. I am tagging Amy and Stephanie to do a Spiritual Meme, and anyone else who reads my blogs. Many blessing on Your Journey...

The Lipstick Cure

2006-06-09T07:39:00.000-05:00
A certain private school in Beverly Hills was faced with a unique problem. A number of 12-year-old girls were beginning to use lipstick and would put it on in the bathroom. That was fine, but after they put on their lipstick they would press their lips to the mirror leaving dozens of little lip prints. Every night, the maintenance man would remove them and the next day, the girls would put them back. Finally the principal decided that something had to be done. She called all the girls to the bathroom and met them there with the maintenance man. She explained that all these lip prints were causing a major problem for the custodian who had to clean the mirrors every night. To demonstrate how diff icult it had been to clean the mirrors, she asked the maintenance man to show the girls how much effort was required. He took out a long-handled squeegee, dipped it in the toilet, and cleaned the mirror with it. Since then, there have been no lip prints on the mirror. There are teachers, and then there are educators...

This was sent to me from one of my high school friends Melissa. She is always coming up with great emails like this.

Blogger!!!

2006-06-05T14:00:00.000-05:00
Having trouble with blogger! Will try my Spiritual Meme later!

Happy Anniversary!

2006-06-03T21:14:00.000-05:00
Today we celebrate 6 years. We are not physical together, but in marriage you are never truly apart. Many thought we would never make it. But we prevailed. Though obstlces have come our way, God has always been on our side. I know we both have wanted to run. But instead ran to one another. I remember the nights I would pray and ask God to put a deep love for me in your heart. My heartinstead was saturated with love for you. I wondered how could I ever love anyone as much as I love you. I think of the day we are old and instead of wanted to hold hands we have to. I see us an old married couple watching our children go through what we are going through and think to ourselves. The best is yet to be. I watch our children and thank God he used us to make two amazing children. Patrick, I adore you and never want to live a moment with out you. You provide for us more than we could as for. You do your best to make our dreams come true. You never hinder us from being the best we can be. You chose a church for us that we love and grow as a family. You told me last weekend I look the sexiest I have ever looked in our entire marriage. You look at me and still I turn away because I am taken back by the beauty that caught my eye. I thank God that I met you Feb. 21 1999 and He answered a prayer I wrote in my journal that night asking him to make you my husband. Though I had to wait 7 months before I saw you again and another 7 weeks before our relationship was offical. When it became real. It has always been real. I love you my husband, hero and best friend. Happy Anniversary. May we blessed with 60 more.

Tagged

2006-06-02T09:43:00.000-05:00
I got tagged to do a Spiritual Meme. I will post it tommorow. Thanks Judith! ;0)

Sunshine State

2006-06-01T11:01:00.000-05:00
I am on vaction in Florida visiting my parents and brother's family. It's been fun and crazy. I will be back to blogging on Saturday. That is when my brother heads back to Virgina. I look forward to getting back to blogging again. I just bought a new digital camera. Can't wait to upload some pictures I have taken. One in particular is a picture of my kids by a lake over here, and in the back ground is an aligator. Didn't even see it till I looked at the picture later.
:0 O!

That feeling never goes away??!!

2006-05-29T06:19:00.000-05:00
On June 3rd, Patrick and I will celebrate our 6th Wedding Anniversary. Some thing I haven't ever told anyone about is this feeling I get in my stomach on Sunday night. I am a SAHM, who works part-time. Because I get to stay home with the kids, or anyone who stays home with the kids must make sacrifices. One of ours are the long day Patrick keeps from Monday -Thursday. I try not to complain, because he tries his best to come home early on Fridays and is always home on the weekends. I miss him so much during the day. Almost as bad as when we were dating long distance.
But something happens to me almost every Sunday night. After I check on the kids when they finally settled down for the night, I pass by the door that goes to the garage. My heart always sinks. I get a bit sad knowing Patrick will go back to work after our weekend together. Since we were first married I have felt this. I even get nervous to see him when he has been on a business trip and we pick him up from the airport. It never amazes me how love is. I always pray for God to keep our love strong. He continues to give me a deeper love for my husband each day.

Birthday Pictures for Patrick

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Me and My Little Dudes. Scroll down to see more pictures.

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We had these pictures taken for Patrick's Birthday. From left to right: Joey 2 1/2, Patrick 5 , and me Bernadette

Happy Birthday Patrick

2006-05-23T13:03:00.000-05:00
To my husband on your Birthday, I love you and am blessed by you and I cherish the gift God gave me in you! Happy Birthday, Patrick. I love you!

May We NEVER Forget...

2006-05-23T12:58:00.000-05:00
Click on the Title. It will be well worth it. Have a tissue handy.

God's Timing

2006-05-21T13:27:00.000-05:00
God never ceases to amaze me about how awesome His timing is. I decided to be totally honest in the post. My husband's family came to visit us this last week. My husband's family are very dedicated catholics. Good people!! But my faith is different than theirs. I have casual told them how our beliefs are different. Not that I didn't want or try to. I just didn't ever want to offend then nor make them think I thought I was right and they were wrong. I always let them ask me and I would share my faith more through my actions than words. Two days ago, one of the family members began talking about their faith. Oh I wanted to badly to say something. I interjected a few statements. I felt more like I was trying to say something other than letting God lead. As I prayed quietly to myself, God spoke to me and lead me to just listen. I keep thinking Oh this is my opportunity!! But I let it go. The never next night after my shower, I went into the family room. When I sat down. I was asked to share what I believe and talk about my church. God gave me free reign and I believe He truly blessed the conversation. I said everything that was on my heart. I really believe God gave me the words to say to my husbands family. His timing is awesome and He never stops amazing me. This was one of those God Things.!

Goochland Gazette May 18, 2006 My Brother's Article on the Davinci Code

2006-05-19T10:55:00.000-05:00
My Brother has really been used of God in the town he lives in. He is a pastor in a town outside of Virginia. Take a look at the article.I hope I have sited the article correctly.

Letters to the editor

The DaVinci Code

Most if not all of us are aware of Ron Howard’s new film The DaVinci Code which will debut in movie theaters world wide this coming weekend. The DaVinci Code is the most serious attack on the Bible in the history of Christianity. Is it not ironic how just a few months ago political leaders in the international community either issued statements or spoke out against the Jyllands-Posten Muhammad cartoons, yet this same community remains silent with regards to the claims of The DaVinci Code. It’s a double standard as far as I am concerned.

Webster's definition of a novel is “an extended fictional narrative in prose, usually in the form of a story.” Yet ironically The DaVinci Code, which is a novel, states that “All descriptions of artwork, architecture, documents and secret rituals in this novel are accurate.” Well is it fact or is it fiction?

The DaVinci Code dangerously leads the reader to believe that Jesus Christ married Mary Magdalene, that the Bible is the product of man and not inspired of God, that Jesus Christ became deity as a result of a vote by church leaders, and that The Church has conspired to hide all of this. These heretical claims violate the teachings of the inerrant Word of God which is the final authority for all truth and matters. In addition there are also many significant historical errors in Dan Brown’s book with regards to The Priory of Sion and Opus Dei that are easily exposed by reputable historians. Despite Mr. Brown's claims, he is everything but accurate.

For those who would consider to believe the claims presented in Dan Brown’s book, I encourage you to visit www.davincidelusion.org and see for your self how many of the claims are proved to be completely false. If you do not have internet access then I invite you to join us at Ragland Memorial Baptist Church of Sandy Hook on Saturday May 20 at 7pm for a public viewing of The DaVinci Delusion.

Rev. Ed Rodriguez, Pastor
Ragland Memorial Baptist Church
Sandy Hook

School Dazes

2006-05-19T08:23:00.000-05:00
School finished yesterday. There were lots of tears. All of them the moms. With their thank yous and well wishes. One student I truly believe change the way I teach. He was a boy who I didn't know how I would ever reach him. I knew he was very bright, but how would I ever be the teacher he needed. After the first semester of frustration and lack of understanding. I began to research and pray for wisdom. After several weeks. I finally had a break through. I implemented what I had learned and had a new attitude about my student and teaching. Around Valentine's Day I finally saw progress with my student. This child blew me away in more ways than one. This student began to make progress and show true signs of success. As I said Good-Bye to this child I looked into his eyes and wondered what God would had planned for him. I don't know if I will even see him again, but in saying Good-Bye I was reminded of a verse But some having compassion making a difference.
God gave me compassion for this child. In doing so, I saw the difference God allowed me to make.

And the Journey Begins...

2006-05-16T14:41:00.000-05:00
Today was preschool graduation. The kids were humourous and adorable. One of my students thought it would be funny to jump off the stage after he received his diploma. Many of the moms had tears in their eyes. As a teacher it is so hard to let go of your students and give them to another teacher. I sometimes wish I could sit their new teacher down and tell them all I learned about them. How to teach them and what their strength and weakness are. One of the first lessons I learned student teaching was a new teacher, new year, and new start.
When I let go of one of my classes it is not after an evening of tears and asking God to give them another blessed year. This class I am teaching now is special. They were my first class after a pause to have my babies. I see how God prepared me for this class. I always said I will never teach preschool. NO WAY! I am now teaching K-4 and this has been one of the best year teaching ever. God allowed me to mature as a teacher and having a 5 year old gave me a better understanding of this age group and how to teach and talk to them.
I truly believe I have a blessed life beyond measure. I have a wonderful life. I am wife, mother and teacher. I have three of the best jobs I could have ever asked for. I am most richly blessed.

Mother Day

2006-05-14T13:17:00.000-05:00
I thought I would talk about the women who are dear to me who have mother in their name.
Mother In Law
I am blessed to have a wonderful mother in law. She is a kindhearted women who everyone loves. Two life lessons she has taught me are:
1. When your child is being naughty and not listening to you, remove them from the situtation and find something else for them to do.
I always thought this was an opportunity to teach my boys discipline. I would get frustrated and feedup. After doing the things I saw her do with all the grandkids, I quickly learned that is the quickest way to resolve a problem.

2. Another lesson that a has caused me to think outside of the box. No matter the situtation or who it involves, there are always to side to a story. I always have heard this statement. But until she gave me an example, I never really understood it allows you to make a better decision about anything or how you give advice to another person. I think implementing this to someone you love or very close to you is the hardest.

My Grandmother
What do I say about her. She is alittle Puerto Rican lady who has a lot to say. She may stand 4'10, but she has alot to blow you away with. I have learned from her the power of God and the power God has given us. I have seen God speak to her in amazing ways, and witness God use her in lives of MANY people. I would have to say she is godliest person I have ever know. Mama relationship with God challenges me daily to take my walk with God one step further.

My Mom
My mom was 23 when she had me. That seems so young to have children these days. But she and my dad were high school sweethearts and married young(21). By the time she was 23 she was married with 2 children. When I was 23 I think I was trying to decided if I wanted to live with my parents another year or go to Mexico (I choose Mexico and one more year with my parents.) Mom and I have always had a unique relationship. We probably crossed the line too many times between Mother and daughter/Friends and Buddies. But I always believed she did what she felt was best for us. Mom, was my mom and friend.

To each of you out there, may you day be blessed because of you!

Dancing Through The Decades

2006-05-12T11:33:00.000-05:00
Check out this guy dancing to the biggest dance crazes!!! Too funny!! Hope you enjoy!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMH0bHeiRNg

Happy Birthday to My Mom!

2006-05-11T20:43:00.000-05:00
Happy Birthday Mom! How blessed I am to have had you in my life. When I was young you played barbies with me. When I was a tween, you bought me make up and told me not to let Daddy know I had that. When I was a teenager, only you knew the boys I liked. As a young lady in college you let me spread my wings and fly. As a newlywed I would get mad at my husband and you would, I thought take his side. As a mom I called/call you many time a day seeking your advice or just to talk about the days gone by. Today I remember you as my friend, mentor, and mother. Happy __ years old! I love you Mom!

Cycle of Abuse

2006-05-10T13:16:00.000-05:00
I just read an article about a son who was sent to jail for killing his abusive father. The son is a grown man 26, and had been out gone from his family for years. It made me think about the cycle of abuse, but even in the Bible were is says sins are past down unto the third and forth generations.